Lighting BoltYou win the lottery and now you are a millionaire.

You have a car accident and now you are in the hospital.

Capricious? Yes, the world has a degree of capriciousness to it that can make life seem impulsive, fickle, unpredictable, even volatile.

Yet there is an underlying degree of order to it – the world. The world has a lot of predictability to it. The sun rises every day; I go to work or school every day.

There is a tension that is held in balance by the day-to-day predictability and the day-to-day fickleness of our lives. Some of life has an element of chance to it, the roll of the dice, the spin of the wheel, where we are born, all come into play.

Keeping the tension in balance between the day-to-day chance occurrences and the daily routine is where the difficulty lies.

The element of chance can either add excitement or create anxiety.

I keep this in balance through my internal creativity. I create stories to explain the unexplainable chance occurrences that occur everyday.

I meet a stranger. Strike up a conversation. I find myself feeling good.

I make sense out of it (for me). It may not make sense to anyone else, but it makes sense to me. Or, better said, I rationalize the irrational.

When my irrational rationalizations work, I am balanced. When they don’t hit the mark, I am out of balance. Then comes anxiety – an unpleasant state of inner turmoil. My dragon shows up, sometimes breathing fire or just showing his menacing head.

I try to slay my inner dragon; and when I can’t, I bury him.

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